Why is this happening?!

12:05AM

Wow, I have a live journal! Havn't used this thing in years.....

10:59PM - Useful things with no use...

A sink to wash away my sins in...


An urn to hold the ashes of the bridges I've burned...




On a side note:

All robots are heros unless otherwise specified.

Current mood: blank

1:04AM - new face

Current mood: tired

12:06PM - new stufff...

Current mood: blah

1:49PM

feeling much better today.. no more crying..

in fact.. here are some things that I painted!





and a little girl that I painted on saturday who was just too cute... No matter how down I am.. when I paint them and they smile.. I can't help but to be happy again..


*hug*

Current mood: cheerful

7:09PM

just spoke to Chris for the first time since God knows when..

can't stop crying..

Current mood: depressed

3:49PM - BODYPAINTING

finally did some body painting.. Enjoy ^_^

Current mood: busy

7:20PM - fill it out.. or i kill... well.. maim maybe..

1. Can you cook?

2. What was your dream growing up?

3. What talent do you wish you had?

4. Favorite place?

5. Favorite vegetable?

6. What was the last book you read?

7. What zodiac sign are you ?

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?

9. Worst Habit?

10. Do we know each other outside of lj?

11. What is your favorite sport?

12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?

13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15. Tell me one weird fact about you:

16. Do u have any pets?

17. Do u know how to do the macerana?

18. What time is it where u are now?

19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22. What color eyes do you have?

23. Ever been arrested?

24. Bottle or Draft?

25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?

26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?

27. What 's your favorite bar to hang at?

28. Do you believe in ghosts?

29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

30. Do you swear a lot?

31. Biggest pet peeve?

32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?

33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

10:53AM

Happy singles awarness day!

Current mood: rushed

12:23AM

i have a cut..right in the corner of my mouth.. and it huuuuuurts.

4:25PM

This.. this is bad.

Nothing like this can be good.

It's the worst.. in so long.

The damn sky keeps changing, moving.. and I'm stuck, planted in the ground.. The tree lost it's leaves.. poor thing never had a chance.
At least it changes with the season.. But have I grown? Have I changed?

I thought that polaroid image in my head would mat and frame itself by now... It's still laying on the floor... forgotten and stepped on.

So much clutter in my head..

A thousand thoughts piled up to the ceiling, wrinkling with time and losing their novelty.

ugh..

shoot me.

5:08PM

I have a class in an hour.. it's elementary art education.. should be interesting. I already had my reading comprehension and something or another class today.. I think that it's supposed to teach us how to make kids listen, or want to listen while learning about your specific subject.

wew.

hmm


I have makeup class as well.. but I had that yesterday morning and my instructor didn't show up for it at all. We sat around for 40 minutes and then got up and left. I hope someone shows up tomorrow.

I'm also in advanced ceramics.. I have Jim for my prof and I'm pretty happy with that. He's such a great potter.. I'm gonna try and learn as much as I can from this class.

My last but not least class is intro to costume design.. That should be interesting, but it's only on Fridays so I'll have to wait a couple of days to see what that's all about.

Over all I'm pretty excited for this semester.



New Years was fun.. I painted at the Granby Theater and hung out for thier celebration. That sure was interesting.. pics to follow.








okay.. i'm off to get some snackies before class..

love you all.

ash.

Current mood: calm

4:55PM

i don't wanna forget this site...


www.inkfinger.com

8:18PM

I never post anymore.. I should change that.. I posted in my myspace blog though...www.myspace.com/picnpaint.. that be me.

NEWS::

-I have a stalker, and I really don't like it.

-I'll be body and face painting at the Granby Theatre for their New Years Ball thing.. Look for my work!

-I personally have no New Years plans.. lame.

-School starts soon..

-My car broke down in Williamsburg while I was trying to get back to Hampton after babysitting Lenore's kid. It also, almost fell down into a ravine. That was exciting and horrifing.

-Car works now.. after not having it for exactly one week. No car sucks.

-I'm going to be showing my photography this summer in Williamsburg.

-I'll be putting my purses up for sale soon. You'll be able to find them at Keeper's in Norfolk, and Aroma's in Williamsburg.

uhmm... End transmission.

Current mood: anxious

7:46AM - good morning sunshine, the earth says hello.

some pics from this mornings sun rise.. which I somehow felt inclined to photograph after Rob headed home... it was swell.

Current mood: calm

6:07PM

my schedule for next semester is as follows...

Advanced Ceramics, Elementary Art Education, Writing and Language content in Education, Intro to Theatrical Makeup, Intro to Costume Design..... super eh?

Current mood: crazy

2:05AM

My friend Eula just made a post on her Myspace blog.... she mentioned that she was still torn over her ex that she broke up with a few months ago.. that they had dated for six months... that she just wanted to be over him and to move on.. she wanted to feel like herself again.. for the hurt to go away.


and..


I just thought about that for a while.


I can relate. The hurt. The loneliness. That feeling of unfinished business... I still feel that way about Chris sometimes. I don't know why. It's been a year since he broke up with me but sometimes I find myself thinking about him again. I don't know why.. Maybe because he was such a big part of my life for two years. Maybe I just miss the idea of him. I find it hard to relate to anyone else, the way that I did with him.

Maybe I'm not supposed to. Maybe I compare people to that relationship and I just set myself up for disaster. I have a hard time letting people get close to me these days. I'm truly and honestly afraid that they're gonna leave me. I know that's ridiculous.. but Chris left and CJ left and I'm just over it. I'm done. Sometimes I feel like I'm just meant for tragedy.

It's so stupid to miss Chris. I know that. It's dumb to miss someone that gave you up. Someone that lives so far away, someone that probably doesn't even miss you. That hurt you so badly... But I miss our jokes, our conversations... And I'm scared that I'll never have that again, with anyone.




I'm trying to concentrate on art. I want to get my work out there, I want to be in shows, I want to see shows.. I want to go places.. I wanna see New York, and I wanna go back to San Francisco again. I want to see Chicago and Montreal and why the hell not? I can do those things. I'll figure it out.

I've decided that I want to go to graduate school. I'm going to be a teacher.

I'm so freaked out and calm about things at the same time.


But.. still.. those thoughts of him linger in the back of my mind. I feel like I'm going mad.

Why aren't there just more guys out there that are nice, intelligent, religious, and interested in culture??? WHY?!


Yea, I really am this stupid.

Current mood: drained

2:57PM

OKAY

so thanks to all you folks out there for freaking out for me and hoping that i stay in the class, because psycho bitch teacher lady person and i had a long talk and i'm staying! w00t w00t.. i'm still not very fond of her....but.. whatever.

also.. i'm going to roundhill va at the end of the month for a facepainting class! i'm super excited and what not.

uhmm
yes.

so, let's do something people!

i've been bored lately.. let's chill sometime.

-A.

Current mood: amused

11:08PM

Dear Ashley:

I am sorry, But at this time you must withdrawal from class.
Remember the deadline for this is October 24.

Sincerely,
Elizabeth Leeor


I just got this in my student email tonight.. and it's from my color theory class instructor... I have no idea why she sent it to me... I wrote her back asking why and I'm gonna call her in the morning...

geez...

Current mood: worried

6:11AM

Went to DC on Sunday to check out some different galleries and do some serious photo journaling..

I rode there with David, Rosa, and Scott...

I love truck stops.

I love the metro.

Some fat cow came up to me in the metro and tried to tell me that it was a illegal to take pics in the metro.. I saw no signs saying no. deal with it lady.

I LOVE the Renwick Gallery.. I'll have to go back there again soon, I'd love to see the Ruth Duckworth exhibit again.. I didn't take my time wandering the first time. Rushing art is a no-no.

We found this grand little pub called The Red Lion's. Our waitor was fantastic, the food was cheap and tastey and the beer wasn't a bit pricey. The Scottish fellows sitting at the bar next to us were a hoot. God I loved their accent.

We also hit a Thai bar in Dupont Circle... David bought my drink, wasn't that nice of him? Goooood coconut soup..

I counted 3 gay shops, 5 shoe stores, 3 Indian shops, and 1 Japanese shop. I wanted the giant fish wind sock haning outside the Japanese shop.. but they didn't have anymore.. I should have bought some rose flavored pumpkin seeds now that I look back on it.. oh well.

It felt a bit like being back in San Francisco again.. hills, shops.. cafes.. people out and about. super.

pics to come later.